Striving to Seek

I just recently had a breakthrough in my spiritual life. I realized that I was sittin' on my butt and being the most lazy person I have ever known. Let me explain...I grew up in a Christian home and man has it been easy for me to be a "good girl". I haven't had to stand up to very much adversity and I was brought up with great values. I never had to create any values for myself or make any decisions that were signifaicant to my behavior.
About three years ago, I grew significantly closer to God, and I wrote down some notes from some seminars I had attended. I picked my notes back up recently and read through them. I came across a quote that I will never forget throughout my personal life and my ministry. " You will never coast through your spiritual life" I was COASTING! I was walking as smoothly as possible and it didn't even occur that I was missing anything.
This was a jaw dropping moment for me, and probably the first one I had ever had. I needed to seek; I wanted to seek. God had given me all of this and I have heard all of this before but I never realized it until now.
How many times do we sit down and really evaluate how much we have seeked after our God, finding who and what He is? Where is our energy going? What/Who do we think about when we get up for our day and go to sleep at night? This was more then a turning point, it was the beginning of a life "Striving to Seek".

Spring Brain Cleaning

So spring break is here, and my mind is just flooded with thoughts of what comes next. After this break, I will come back to the school dorms for the last time. I will come back to being an RA for two more months and then never again will I have the opportunity to live with these girls who have taught me so much this year. I only have two more months of living with a bunch of girls. I will never again have the easy access of giggling, chick flicks, or drama. Some of this I won't miss, but I know that I will never forget the comfort of being around and living with people who just understand what it’s like to act purely on feelings. I will come back after break and realize that I don't even know where I will live at the end of the summer. I will begin to think even more about how grown up I will become after this next year; I will be a wife. I will have the beginnings of a family. Isn't that crazy?

After spring break I will apply to my major; I continue in the process of my call to full-time, vocational ministry. I will talk to my District Superintendent and articulate my call and my goals to someone who doesn't understand me. That makes me nervous!

This is just the beginning of the many changes that will occur within the next couple months and who knows what changes God will have for me. What else can I say? My life is chaotic. I am living in God's will and trusting Him to provide the strength and peace that is needed for the things that are to come. Frankly, finally not knowing everything is so exciting! Being in the dark-is exhilarating. It’s all part of the adventure that God allows us to have in a life with Him.

A little nervous...

Well, blog number one. Everyone around me had been psyched about their new blogs and I haven't had much to do with the conversation. I don't really know what will come of this new hobby, but I am excited to see what experience comes of typing out my thoughts for other people to read. I am definitely not a "writer" by any means and I am not one to journal. I don't know what is to come, but I am continuing anyway. Here goes nothin', or should I say everything.